SOMETIMES, you order your refill meds on time. But they don’t arrive in time. And SOMETIMES instead of panicking or blaming yourself/the pharmacy/mail, you seek a solution. And find one. Grateful for a holdover refill, grateful to have had the availability and bandwidth to solve the problem. And grateful I could drive there instead ofContinue reading “Emergency Refill”
Category Archives: self-care
Shakespeare in Recovery
Navigating the world while recovering from an eating disorder is tricky. Some pieces are CLEARLY tricky: when diet culture is constantly inviting you back into sickness, when advertisers bank on activating insecurities, when hustle culture applauds working through lunch. These are challenges I am aware of, and can more-or-less cushion against. Part of my brainContinue reading “Shakespeare in Recovery”
More Than Humans
I haven’t written in awhile. Or rather, I haven’t written anything to share. Things are just so… inconceivable. (And I’m sure we all just imagined Princess Bride). Lately it feels like nothing I add adds value. Writing, lecturing, discussing, it all just feels like… fiddling while the world burns. There’s nothing I will say thatContinue reading “More Than Humans”
Deck Blinds
These blinds have been sitting on my deck for longer than I care to admit. They symbolize the double work of chronic illness. See, I am intermittently functional. There are days that my body can do just about anything, and then there are days where even my hair hurts. The ratio of functioning days toContinue reading “Deck Blinds”
Gratitude within a Flare
It started in the early morning, and I woke up and took my meds and applied biofreeze and drank water and tried to get more rest (which did not work).
“Are you OK?” (No. Yes. Mostly?)
The past couple weeks have been a LOT. There’s been loss and grief and shock and perspective shifts. There’ve been so many adjustments, life almost feels fluid (which is pretty beautiful), and now it’s the end of May. The phrase “Are you okay?” always throws me off. I feel defensive and defective and completely unableContinue reading ““Are you OK?” (No. Yes. Mostly?)”
Returning to Joyfulness
It’s been a minute. Hello and happy Spring. The sun has returned and life springs anew. Flowers are blooming and birds are singing and I find myself smiling to myself on my walks– staring up at the trees in wonder. Wonder and Joy have been big themes for me lately. I’m doing a play, aContinue reading “Returning to Joyfulness”
Pep Talk: Almost Spring
This time of year gets really tricky. It’s the longest we’ve been in Winter mode, anxiously awaiting Spring, doubtful it will ever arrive. Historically, for me, it’s a tricky time of year as it marks a lot of loss. I’ve come to understand that the longer I live, the more loss I will sustain andContinue reading “Pep Talk: Almost Spring”
Another easy-ass meal- oven chicken and carrots.
Preheat oven to 400– Frozen chicken thighs on a baking sheet with rough chopped carrots 20 mins— go chill. Lie on the floor, release your jaw, roll your head back and forth. Bring one knee into the chest, then the other. Then both. Wiggle so it feels good. When the timer goes off, season/flip/season theContinue reading “Another easy-ass meal- oven chicken and carrots.”
Notes to Self: Dear Brooklyn Dancer,
Note to self: Sweet baby girl, you take up as much space as you can. The world is vast and the universe expanding. Cowards will try to make you small. They will line their pockets with your insecurities. Starve them. Deny THEM. Not yourself.Restriction won’t help you grow.And you can’t hate yourself to happy. TheyContinue reading “Notes to Self: Dear Brooklyn Dancer,”
Pretty Good Ugly 