I’m doing my reluctant room-clean, going through the piles that have stacked up, and I came across an old “Goals” list. Bake bread, jog/walk neighborhood, gratitude practice, weekly clean 1 task a day. Now these goals may seem elementary to you (congratulations on your achievements), but to Then-Me, these were significant. To current me theseContinue reading “Why We Write It Down”
Category Archives: Pep Talks
Self Worth
I was recently, and painfully, reminded that while people can change, most people don’t. That the way they’ve treated you in the past is a real indicator of how they’ll treat you today and tomorrow (and tomorrow and tomorrow). (Sorry, theatre nerd, I always have to say it in threes). At first, I got angryContinue reading “Self Worth”
Emergency Refill
SOMETIMES, you order your refill meds on time. But they don’t arrive in time. And SOMETIMES instead of panicking or blaming yourself/the pharmacy/mail, you seek a solution. And find one. Grateful for a holdover refill, grateful to have had the availability and bandwidth to solve the problem. And grateful I could drive there instead ofContinue reading “Emergency Refill”
Shakespeare in Recovery
Navigating the world while recovering from an eating disorder is tricky. Some pieces are CLEARLY tricky: when diet culture is constantly inviting you back into sickness, when advertisers bank on activating insecurities, when hustle culture applauds working through lunch. These are challenges I am aware of, and can more-or-less cushion against. Part of my brainContinue reading “Shakespeare in Recovery”
More Than Humans
I haven’t written in awhile. Or rather, I haven’t written anything to share. Things are just so… inconceivable. (And I’m sure we all just imagined Princess Bride). Lately it feels like nothing I add adds value. Writing, lecturing, discussing, it all just feels like… fiddling while the world burns. There’s nothing I will say thatContinue reading “More Than Humans”
Deck Blinds
These blinds have been sitting on my deck for longer than I care to admit. They symbolize the double work of chronic illness. See, I am intermittently functional. There are days that my body can do just about anything, and then there are days where even my hair hurts. The ratio of functioning days toContinue reading “Deck Blinds”
Gratitude within a Flare
It started in the early morning, and I woke up and took my meds and applied biofreeze and drank water and tried to get more rest (which did not work).
Secular Saturday
Good morning.There is SO MUCH.There are also trees.And birds.And sunshine.And you.Thank goodness for you.
Dear Queers:
Maybe you’ve always known. Maybe you’re still figuring it out. You are real and you are worthy of love. You deserve to be not just SAFE in your love, but CELEBRATED in your love. In your Life. I am sorry for my years of delusion and confusion. For shouting “No she’s not!” Thinking I wasContinue reading “Dear Queers:”
“Are you OK?” (No. Yes. Mostly?)
The past couple weeks have been a LOT. There’s been loss and grief and shock and perspective shifts. There’ve been so many adjustments, life almost feels fluid (which is pretty beautiful), and now it’s the end of May. The phrase “Are you okay?” always throws me off. I feel defensive and defective and completely unableContinue reading ““Are you OK?” (No. Yes. Mostly?)”
Pretty Good Ugly 