Whispers of Autumn

It’s starting— the weather’s shifting, coughs are getting deeper, green is fading to gold, and I get to wear scarves. GAME ON. California catches a lot of flack for “not having seasons,” which we do, they’re just kinda chill about it. Nothing too extreme. (Until everything catches fire again but shhhh) Our neighbor’s tree isContinue reading “Whispers of Autumn”

Saturday Insight

I used to despair at what I could not do.The things I could Not Change.I would rage and weep and thrash and exhaust. Now I practice acknowledgment.   I see it and grieve it. Mourn and move onTo what I Can Do.

Lessons (Re) Learned

Recently I’ve been reminded of the importance of boundaries. I’ve never been great at healthy boundaries, I either lock people out completely and provide a curated character to interact with the world, or I fire hydrant blast all my thoughts everywhere. Over the past few years I’ve gotten better at being less performative, I’ve integratedContinue reading “Lessons (Re) Learned”

Powerlessness

I’m (slowly) recognizing where my power lives, and where it does not. I’ve spent most of my life trying to flex my power. “Intellect over instinct,” my dance teacher told me, and I became a master of overriding my body’s natural cues. Hunger, fatigue, pain, nothing stopped me or even slowed me down. I walkedContinue reading “Powerlessness”

Divorcing the Shoulds

I’ve lived under the weight of Shoulds for as long as I can remember. The “supposed to” Unspoken and unspeakably high expectations. Through the last decade or so, I’ve been breaking free of the Shoulds.Liberating myself bit by bit,Loosening, though not breaking my shackles. The external ones were easier to see, “Don’t Should on me!”Continue reading “Divorcing the Shoulds”

A Child who Notices

When you have a child who Notices, it takes longer to do everything because there are flowers to smell and shadows to chase and rainbows in puddles. When you have a child who Notices, you learn to leave a little earlier and that arriving late isn’t an emergency. Or you live in a constant stateContinue reading “A Child who Notices”

Perpetual Healing and Recurring Recovery

This is about my neck. And every thing really. But last night my neck got angry. Ten years ago, I sustained a life altering injury to my neck and shoulders when two cases of produce fell off the top shelf of the walk-in and got me like a guillotine. My healing and recovery have beenContinue reading “Perpetual Healing and Recurring Recovery”