loss – Pretty Good Ugly

“Are you OK?” (No. Yes. Mostly?)

The past couple weeks have been a LOT. There’s been loss and grief and shock and perspective shifts. There’ve been so many adjustments, life almost feels fluid (which is pretty beautiful), and now it’s the end of May. The phrase “Are you okay?” always throws me off. I feel defensive and defective and completely unableContinue reading ““Are you OK?” (No. Yes. Mostly?)”

Ready or Not, my story

CW: pregnancy loss, abortion January 6th, 7th, 8th, and 9th , 2021 were the worst days of my life so far. One of the things most friends don’t realize because we were all sheltering at home, is that I was pregnant in 2020. It was the one redeeming thing of an awful year. I coziedContinue reading “Ready or Not, my story”

Grr-attitude, Gratitude and Grief

I bristle at a lot of advice I’ve received and I cringe sometimes, worrying that I am perpetuating toxic ideology. I won’t dare to assume what another human is going through, and I am no model on how to handle life beautifully and gracefully. In fact, I often feel like I have more Grrr-attitude thanContinue reading “Grr-attitude, Gratitude and Grief”