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Shakespeare in Recovery

Navigating the world while recovering from an eating disorder is tricky. Some pieces are CLEARLY tricky: when diet culture is constantly inviting you back into sickness, when advertisers bank on activating insecurities, when hustle culture applauds working through lunch. These are challenges I am aware of, and can more-or-less cushion against. Part of my brainContinue reading “Shakespeare in Recovery”

When your Daughter is Beautiful

It’s Strange When Your Daughter is BeautifulTo see it but dare not say it,Not wanting to define her by her beauty. I hear it, and stumble my response.Thanks feels inappropriate, “I know” feels wrong too. It’s Strange when your Daughter is BeautifulAnd she looks like you too. You see it,You hear it,You wonder if it’sContinue reading “When your Daughter is Beautiful”

Notes to Self: Dear HS Freshman

Oh dear one, the world is large and the universe expanding. It’s beautiful and terrifying and comforting and overwhelming. And YOU ARE PART OF THAT. Part of the chaotic and magnificent cosmic blob. You are a creature of the multiverse. One of many. There is not a single thing wrong with you. There may beContinue reading “Notes to Self: Dear HS Freshman”

No dish breakfast

Sometimes I need a simpler breakfast. A really easy one. No dishes. Enter: TOAST!! Smear it with whatever you have on hand— peanut butter, cheese, smooshed banana, regular ass butter. Today I did avocado (and a sprinkle of Everything but the Bagel because I’m a little bit bougie). Because we gotta eat today. No matterContinue reading “No dish breakfast”

Notes to Self: Dear Brooklyn Dancer,

Note to self: Sweet baby girl, you take up as much space as you can. The world is vast and the universe expanding. Cowards will try to make you small. They will line their pockets with your insecurities. Starve them. Deny THEM. Not yourself.Restriction won’t help you grow.And you can’t hate yourself to happy. TheyContinue reading “Notes to Self: Dear Brooklyn Dancer,”

Human Jellyfish

I’ve been thinking a lot about our bodies– how miraculous and baffling they are. All the different components working together, the signals, the hormones, the cues and responses. I’m trying to think about how my body works instead of just how it looks. Also, when half your face goes numb and the doctors are tryingContinue reading “Human Jellyfish”

Ready to Burn

Last night, my daughter asked me how to get a flat tummy, and she sucked her little belly in. “I want it flat, I don’t want it fat, like this” and she exhaled her tummy back out. She’s six. I know I’ve been pulled back into my eating disorder but I thought I was keepingContinue reading “Ready to Burn”