2022

Post-It Sized Cage

For over a year I’ve had a post-it with various weight ranges and categories listed. As a reminder. A post-it sized cage. I’ve spun some pretty spectacular bullshit to justify its existence: That the range helps me from focusing on a single number, that it helps me keep perspective, that it keeps me accountable, that it preventsContinue reading “Post-It Sized Cage”

Ready or Not, my story

CW: pregnancy loss, abortion January 6th, 7th, 8th, and 9th , 2021 were the worst days of my life so far. One of the things most friends don’t realize because we were all sheltering at home, is that I was pregnant in 2020. It was the one redeeming thing of an awful year. I coziedContinue reading “Ready or Not, my story”

Unrecovered

I’m safeguarding my disorder to insure that it will continue. So It will survive. It will go underground and change its name to Wellness and garner so much applause it’d keep Tinkerbell alive forever.

Saturday Insight

I used to despair at what I could not do.The things I could Not Change.I would rage and weep and thrash and exhaust. Now I practice acknowledgment. I see it and grieve it. Mourn and move onTo what I Can Do.

Caterpillar Soup

I can’t make this up. I learned this from my kindergartner.

Kindergartener, COVID and Disneyland

So we did it, we took Bean to Disneyland. It was her first trip! We had planned to take her when she turned 5 but… #2020 The pandemic continues and I had my hesitations, but seeing as we all had it in February, I figured this was our window of opportunity before it mutates more.Continue reading “Kindergartener, COVID and Disneyland”

Things I Do Not Understand

Things I Do Not Understand: War Edition I know that I do not know much about international relations, world politics, or war. I am not a strategist or a scholar of authoritarian regimes. I am broadly educated in world history up to about 1946 when we ran out of time to finish the syllabus so listened toContinue reading “Things I Do Not Understand”

Cruelty, Callousness and COVID

So, it happened. My family caught COVID last month. We had a sense it was heading our way when cases started appearing in our child’s kindergarten class. She had a bit of a sniffle so we tested her at home and it came up positive. That was a Sunday. We cancelled plans and pulled herContinue reading “Cruelty, Callousness and COVID”

Mosaics

Last year, at this time, I was still living in hope. I was living with a promise, and I hadn’t yet experienced the worst day of my life. (The worst day of your life so far… I have to add) #simpsons I thought Christmas would be harder than it turned out to be. New Year, it turns out, isContinue reading “Mosaics”

To those with under 5s — I see you, I love you, I know this is scary AF. I know you’re exhausted and have been running on emergency power for almost two years. I promise to do everything I can. To mask and test and stay home and give space. It might not be enoughContinue reading “2022”