Grr-attitude, Gratitude and Grief

I bristle at a lot of advice I’ve received and I cringe sometimes, worrying that I am perpetuating toxic ideology. I won’t dare to assume what another human is going through, and I am no model on how to handle life beautifully and gracefully. In fact, I often feel like I have more Grrr-attitude thanContinue reading “Grr-attitude, Gratitude and Grief”

The Extremist, the Ocean, and Enough

I’m an extremist. I understand that now. I’m a perfectionist who thinks things (myself included) are either perfect or terrible, and if I’m not perfect than I must be shit. I am unlearning that dichotomy. As a student, I’d claim I failed an exam if I landed a C. I thought I wasn’t a goodContinue reading “The Extremist, the Ocean, and Enough”

Big Feelings, Bigger Picture

A year ago I took my girl to the park for the first time in over 200 days (206 to be precise, we were definitely counting). Now she’s back to Kindergarten after a couple days out with a sniffle and testing negative. We had a play date with Forever Friends. It was amazing to watchContinue reading “Big Feelings, Bigger Picture”

Becoming a Badass: Dysmorphia and Acceptance

I don’t recognize myself in the mirror. I almost always surprise myself. I must not remember or know what I look like. I remember the first time it happened, but I was in high school and I’d just dyed my hair. Bright, Angela Chase red. From a golden wheat brown that was neither a sunnyContinue reading “Becoming a Badass: Dysmorphia and Acceptance”

I am tired and Do Not Know Where the Halloween Decorations are.

I should be decorating for Halloween right now. I am usually decorating for Halloween by now. But I am not. I am tired and I do not know where the Halloween decorations are. I am tired and do not know where the Halloween decorations are because 569 days ago I came home from work andContinue reading “I am tired and Do Not Know Where the Halloween Decorations are.”

Scale of Shit

Most people aren’t actually shitty. Most people are shitty-adjacent. Some people are not-so-shitty And a few people are not-shitty-at-all. We were told there were good people and bad people, shitty people and not-shitty people. Turns out… there are some of both but most are in between, influenced by their surroundings. Most people are just kindaContinue reading “Scale of Shit”